I personally believe that everyone’s spiritual awakening starts with a trigger - be it illness, grief, an experience that freaks you out, a person you meet.
For me in was mental illness.
As a child I was acutely aware of energy, I absorbed it, buzzed from it. Through my teens and twenties it subsided as I was consumed by other things.
And then in my very early thirties I went through a dark 10 month+ period of depression where I experienced a mini-breakdown, as I now call it, totally caused by the toxic environment I worked in.
This pattern of emotions had continued in various jobs/ positions I had held, a cycle, reaching a crescendo of a breakdown. I was off work sick for 6 months. I finally, finally, listened to my inner voice. I was good at my job, I earned great money, I got on well with everyone, I loved developing a team and individuals.
But... I was ‘too sensitive’ to the backstabbing and lies and dog eat dog culture.
I recovered because something in me just clicked, about my life purpose, I realised I was in the wrong place doing the wrong things with the wrong people. I didn’t belong there. It was making me ill. And I had the power to change that. I took a brave step and tentatively left the merry go round of working in fast paced high powered very competitive corporate organisations. Financially I was poor, but emotionally I become so enriched.
At that point I began seeing / hearing / feeling / knowing things again. I didn’t know it was spirit, just that it was energy from another place. Then things really took off 13 years ago when my first son was born, that was a huge catalyst for actually working with energy. And there was another massive shift after the birth of my second son on 11/11/11!
We all have a back story. We all have stepping stones along our spiritual pathway. We all have the universe trying to put us in the right place, even if we don't initially pick up on the signs and need a damn big push to move us along.
And the more people we meet through reiki, or through spiritual development groups, the more discussions we have, then you realise that we are all going through similar things, and we all need help from others, including spirit, at some point.
We will be talking more about this kind of stuff at the Psychic School that’s opening soon.
Thanks for reading
As many of my clients know, I first worked as a spiritual healer and psychic medium before adding holistic therapies to my skill set. My good friend and mentor, the uber talented Susie Gigg is setting up a Psychic School in Basingstoke Hampshire and she has asked me to tutor alongside her. Come along to the open evening for more information! Here's a snippet of info about the school...
"Join us as we welcome you to share our vision to bring you excellent tuition in developing your spiritual and psychic intuition. At our school we will bring you an experience in all things psychic, from classes exploring the use of divination tools cards, pendulums, the ancient art of tea leaf reading and many more ways we can extend our own intuition. As well as having the privilege of experienced guest speakers each term to give talks on specialist subjects! Discover your mediumship abilities or extend in the knowledge you already have. The school is open to everyone, beginners, intermediate and advanced students each level will have an assigned tutor. If you decide to join we require you to sign up on the evening with a £10 non refundable deposit. Classes to run on the first two Wednesday's of each month from 7.30pm - 9.30pm beginning February 2019. Each term is six sessions running for three months priced at £75 which is required in full before each six session
I very privileged to be asked to participate in an interview with Birgitta Visser & Susie Gigg.
Susie is a great friend, but also a wonderful spiritual tecaher, and I am so lucky to be able to sit in her circle and attend events with her.
Birgitta's and Susie discuss Susie's spiritual journey - Susie realised she had an ability much later in life and decided to eventually let it unfold, sitting in circle for 12 years before venturing onto platform. Birgitta says "She is hilarious, outspoken, honest, a realist and as she put it, has more questions than answers on life after death :) She did however when she a wee tot, see things flying around the bedroom she shared with her sister, calling them witches."
I join in (towards the end!) to talk about how joining an open circle has helped me to move forward along my pathway.
How many times have you had an experience when something, perhaps a voice in your head, tells you to do something that you hadn't planned?
Maybe a little voice tells you to drive a different way home from your normal route and then you find out that you in fact missed a big traffic jam. Or have you ever experienced a feeling, a buzz, that something is going to happen, you feel 'on high alert' but don't know why, it's like you are waiting for something to happen.. and then you receive a call to say one of the kids is feeling ill at school and needs collecting.
What about when for no reason you go to a different supermarket to your normal store and bump into somebody you haven't seen for a long time, and its wonderful to reconnect with them, especially when they can help you with an issue that you are struggling with.
Are these experiences driven by your intuition, are they just co-incidences, or are they in fact spiritual guidance from loved ones who want you to know that they are there, that they guide you, and are protecting you?
Whilst I've always been aware of energy around me, until my spiritual pathway was kick started with the arrival of my kids, I hadn't always looked and listened for spiritual signs. I kind of took things for granted. In fact, with a busy working life I really didn't give things much thought, I just believed that there was 'more to this life' and that was about it!
However now again there were signs from spirit, signs that loved ones were indeed looking out for me, helping me, and protecting me from harm.
Once incidence in particular stays front of my mind. This event happened some 15 years ago, long before my spiritual journey really got going, but it left me with the profound knowledge that there are high forces looking after us.
On a bright Sunday afternoon in mid summer, I was driving home after spending time with my mum. I had to drive down a dual carriageway, travelling towards a huge roundabout in my home town. This well known roundabout has traffic lights on the junctions of the adjoining routes.
The roads in general were pretty clear, not a lot of traffic was about, and no cars were up close behind me. With the radio on and the sun shining I was having quite a nice little drive, enjoying the feeling of being alive on such a gorgeous day and looking forward to getting home.
As I approached the roundabout I could see the lights were on green, I had right of way to maneouvre round on the inside lane, to go right towards home. I could also see that the lights for the road coming from the right were on red. Great stuff, I had right of way to get round and would get home quicker!
But for some reason I slowed right down and then abruptly stopped at the junction of the roundabout. I had a green light, I should have joined the roundabout, but I didn't.
I just knew I had to stop. I didn't have a voice telling me to stop. I had a feeling that I had to stop. I can't explain it other than a knowing that even though the lights were on green I needed to stop at the junction.
I sat stationary at the junction for only a few seconds, the traffic light for my joining road was still on green and I could see the traffic light for the road coming from the right was still on red.
Out of no where, from the right, came a speeding car, hurtling straight through the red lights. It flew past me, ignoring the red traffic light and cutting across the lane that I should have been travelling in.
I knew then that someone was looking after me. They had made me stop on that green light, because if I had carried on as I was meant to then that speeding car would have smashed straight into me, straight into the drivers side of my car.
It wasn't my intuition that made me stop - at that time in my life I didn't even listen to my intuition! It wasn't a co-incidence either, after all who stops on a green light?!.
It was a spiritual intervention. And I to this day I thank those who continue to guide and protect me.
With blessings xx
I can't help it, before every tarot reading I get nervous, I tell myself its spirit getting excited!
I find every reading to be emotional, especially for the recipient, and with that comes a huge personal responsibility to deliver the reading and messages from loved ones to the best of my ability.
There are plenty of times whereby the sitter can't answer yes to everything that arises - they simply may not know enough info about the message, or ofcourse I might not be quite 'interpreting & translating' the evidence in the right/best way.
I've had to learn not to get distracted by a 'no' or 'don't know response', it's a continual journey of learning. However what I do know is that more often than not after a reading the recipient gets back in touch to say that after speaking with family more things from the reading have connected!
It constantly reminds me of how much lays undiscovered around us!
For a number of years now I have had a guide working with me for readings and in particular for healing (I will need to write a series of blogs about guides!).
I know she is a nurse and possibly a nun. I see her head covered, her downcast yet mesmerizing eyes and in trance meditations she shows me herself working in warzones healing the wounded and especially children - as an aside for some reason I get a lot of children coming through in readings and messages, still amazes me how everything is connected!
My guide (Agna as I call her) always shows herself wearing a medical mask and I have for the past few months asked her if she could show me her face but she hasn’t.
At the recent Spirit Quest event I planned to book a session for a guide drawing but I had left it too late.
I spent my time instead in other workshops - in particular 2 lovely healing sessions, and in the one on the Sunday morning I was talking to those with me about my guide being a nurse and how I wished I could see her whole face.
There was lots of chatter over the weekend between myself and friends about how I so wished I could see her face and how I wished I had used the opportunities at Spirit Qest to get help to do so.
And them boom, on the Sunday evening there was a demonstration of psychic art by Sandy Ingham. In between giving links with drawings to recipients she drew the picture below - a nurse who looks just like my guide! As soon as I saw the downcast eyes and the headress I knew it was her, and the words that Sandy wrote also matched my thoughts exactly.
Nervous of making a fool of myself (I am such a worrier), I waited until the end of the evening to see if anyone 'claimed' the drawing, they didn't, so I took the brave step of approaching the stage and relaying the above story. Sandy kindly handed me the picture.
And now when I am spiritually working I see Agna's full face, simply wonderful.